monday night blues

this time its heartaches. loss in translation. fear of being apart. and tears. oh yes you break me into tears.

i just want you to know that i am really sorry for making you upset. i know you're sick and tired with all my apologies but i think that's a good note to start with. i admit i have been a gigantic dick towards you in our relationship but so you know, i never ever intended to disappoint you. i took you for granted. i did not bother about what you feel inside and yes i treated you not as what a girl should be treated. i am not compassionate as how i should be. i am acting all so cool about everything including about you.

i am a guy who wants to feel powerful. well clearly that backfired for i did not see how you are actually inside underneath the strong persona of yours. i simply thought that you are feeling good. i regret that. i regret for thinking i am giving you enough love and attention. how shallow i had been all this while. and again i feel like a dick for making you sad.

the thought of not being with you is just so hard to bear and goodness knows how it could turn out to be if it really happens. you mean a lot to me, and i can't afford to lose you. your presence brings a whole lot difference. when i see you smile,it simply blows me away. when i know that you are happy,i would be on top of the world. so i want to make you happy and i'll do whatever it takes to achieve that. how ridiculous this may sound,but you are my bundle of joy.

i want to thank you for all the wonderful things that you have done for me. it's the best a guy could ever asked for. you are a girl every guy would kill for.

i just want to be with you and no one else. i want to grow with you. i want to mature with you. i want to cry for you. i want to hold your hand through all the ups and downs. don't lose your faith in me. i am begging you.

i love you so much fatin . and i mean it.